2021 commencement address (the one I never gave)

I would like to thank those of you who invited me, and to apologize to those of you who must now listen.

 About the same time that I walked out of the sage brush and started teaching High school, these seniors began their educational career in kindergarten. More or less together we have walked these halls for the last 13 years, they learning how to learn; and me learning how to teach. For myself it has been an earth shattering experience- one kept within, or shared with other teachers, while these boys were part of the grand American experiment of public school learning in one of the smallest High Schools in the United States.

 The struggle between us, and the struggle amidst us, to prepare for the world outside this small besieged enclave of relative tranquility is now all but finished. We now send them out into the larger current of swirling, storm tossed society with the hopes that they will find their swimming stroke and make it to the destination that they have been planning for these last few years.

There is nothing in life more invigorating than being a small part of the life of an upper classman; the strength of youth, soaring optimism and unbridled hope fills all around them with a transfusion of life itself. We as teachers cannot help but draw upon the energy and life force that these young men- the future of our country- exude; it is the fountain of youth which we drink from every day and long for when we are away. For them no cloud is too thick; no light too dim, that they shall not overcome and restore the world to its proper balance, which they have learned about all their lives.

 I salute you two boys as you are sent in to the fight; may your weapons be sharp and may your limbs unwearied as you stride into the battle that we call modern society. We have warned you time and again that this will be a struggle, and now you are unloosed upon the world to find out to your dismay that we were right all along.

Montana is both the best place in the world to raise a young man, and it is the worst: best because the outside influences of the wider world are muted and muffled down from the tidal wave that is sweeping all of humanity as we speak, to an unwelcome ripple in a backwater bay far from the ocean.

It is the worst place to grow up in for the exact same reason. A 100 foot tidal wave which would destroy all of the coast around New Orleans will not even register on the Missouri 2000 miles away in Montana- and the tidal wave of barbaric nihilism engulfing the cities and streets of America today have caused just a ripple here- yet waves keep coming and the changes they wreak upon whatever they touch will be permanent changes-  either for the better or worse; in the near term however they are always devastating and if one does not keep his head about him and his wits, one will be swept away.

 All of us are tempted at one time or another to panic, and to the abandonment of all we hold dear and are taught; but principles exist for a reason, and are never so important as when all seems to be lost. Our job here is not so much to give you facts to remember, but to give you facts to show that reason and clear thinking will always result in the best possible outcome- no matter how bleak things may look at the time.

 I now leave you with a quote from one of the 13 men who changed the face of the earth, amidst death dealing persecution and hounding to the day they took their last breath.

“Therefore Brothers, stand firm and cling to the traditions we taught you; either by speech or by letter from us.”

 St Paul of Tarsus

 May Our Lord Jesus Christ watch over you, and keep you safe.

Letter to my Bishop-13

Dear Bishop Warfel,

 As a Faithful, Tithing and regular communicant of Saint Mary’s Catholic Church in Columbus Montana, I would like to express my support for Father Navil Rodriguez as a Priest and as Pastor of said Church.

He is a reverent, Priest, excellent Homilist, and an extrordinary Pastor. He is respectful, compassionate, approachable and friendly with all. His one apparent fault is to place too much emphasis on trying to please people who cannot be placated; such is the situation currently going on today regarding the ruckus created by certain elements among those who attend Mass at St, Agnes in Absorkee.

The very idea of berating a sensitive and kind man such as Father Navil, one in such a vulnerable position and reduce him to tears is reprehensible; especially over unfounded and ridiculous subjective areas such as has been portrayed. Father Navil is a good priest, one we are more than fortunate to have in these perilous times. I wish to express my support for him as Pastor of Saint Mary’s, and do hope that this fine man stays here for many years to come.

I know full well that my support for him may indeed damage his cause for staying, as I am full aware of how you may feel about my opinions in these matters due to past communications we have had (or the lack thereof). However I feel that at this time, support for such a good Priest as Father Navil must transcend all other matters. Thank You for your time.


John Spizziri

Reflections on Teaching

Preparing for this final essay has involved far more thought and examination than is perhaps necessary. Teaching well or attempting to, requires a mindset and specific world view depending upon the type of person involved; i.e. what one is truly trying to convey. Many times a teacher gets caught up in the concept of mere dissemination of facts and methodologies; while others are more concerned with what I term a holistic approach: to crack the intellectual doors that open into a wider understanding and the tremendous possibilities that our world holds. Teaching not just what, but how one is to grapple with established ideas; integrating them into a conceptual context that brings a new mind into the present culture. Getting students to realize that there are certain foundations of knowledge that will be critical, readily accessible, and trusted- providing a firm sub-floor that can be built upon in the future.

For example: I have a very bright young girl in science class who has a goal of becoming a successful beautician.  She did not understand the need for all the “dry science” as she termed it. So how does one integrate this subject into her world view as a valuable resource? There are ways to arouse her consciousness, opening an important gateway for a more fulfilling life. The first task here is to make it as “real” as possible- which I call “tricking” them, and it goes (went) like this:

“Okay- you are working in your beauty Salon, and doing great work. One day a super handsome young man walks in; the man of your present dreams. He mentions that he is a petroleum engineer, and needs to get ready for a big meeting on a project he is heading. He is smart and kind, and eligible. Wouldn’t it be nice that you had at least some remote idea about what he does? How it relates to the world, in order for you to engage in conversation that will showcase that you are not your average everyday beautician; but in fact the bright, curious and discerning young woman you actually are? What else are you going to talk about- hair products? Topical subjects are fine; but they will not get you into his head and let him know what an intelligent discriminating woman you truly are.” I finished by laying out several possible outcomes of this scenario, where she would be able to use knowledge drawn  from her past secondary education in order to make connections and build relationships that will advance her future into a positive outcome brimming with possibilities.

Now to most “educators” this is a coarse and low form of communicating the importance of an education. The kicker here is, it works. She does now understand, and is much more willing to do the work it takes to truly discover things. There are things and experiences in the classroom that at least for now seem unimportant; but someday they might make a real difference in her life. Perhaps this is a crass and lowbrow way to get a crucial message across. Nonetheless I find these types of techniques effective, regardless whether or not those who are swept up in their own fantasies of modern education wish not to besmirch themselves with such base methods.

One of the reasons teachers become teachers is because they love the idea of Knowing: Knowing for the sake of Knowing. This is where we come from, but we do not take into account the fact that there are many highly capable people in this world who do not feel this way; and it is our real job to show them that Knowing is a valuable ability to have- no matter what the area of expertise. I went into this field not to get, but to give; and if I find a way to have students accept what I have to give I will utilize it. With no aims towards future accolades, book contracts or consulting fees, I am a teacher, not an educator— in like manner I wish to be treated by a physician, not a health care professional. There is a difference- one I am passionate about; and the following will hopefully give some insight into my quest of teaching, which did not start when I entered a formal classroom, but when I held the first of my four precious children in my arms, so many years ago.

Being a product of the Northern Plains Transition to Teaching has resulted in a unique path; different enough that my co-workers are from time to time reminded that I have not traveled the same road they all have in University. My Superintendent tells me often that the reason I find some things very strange in this profession is due to this. Fortunately he does not hold this against me as an employee (some do- trust me). However as comrades in arms within this theatre of struggle there are times that things seem to be slightly “out of focus” in my view This while due to the path taken to get here, is not necessarily an obstacle. In many ways it is actually beneficial to be able to see things from a perspective that is not one of what I think of as “careerist”. Let us take the Danielson Framework for example.

Entirely new to me until recently, the framework has some fine attributes. I must admit that it does refine matters into a clearer focus in order to concentrate upon specifics within professional development. Being an organizer by nature, its aspects are appealing in that there are ready ways to identify and categorize professional practice, giving a clear picture into what needs to be worked on and when to do it. I think of it symbolically as a bolt bin; with a bag of mixed items, one can set them out and place them in their proper places so when you need them, they are at hand. The niggling at the back of my mind however is that there are lots of guys who have really immaculate shops, with everything in clearly marked places- nothing is out of whack, yet these guys are the ones who get the least amount of work done because they are so concerned about keeping everything just so. They neglect the actual practice of their trade- and that practice is to produce something. If one can catch this poor analogy, one can see where I am aiming at. If there is anything about teaching that drives me to distraction and despair it is this: the emphasis on process over the product. Education it seems to me has become the domain of system analysts instead of teachers. This leads to failure in so many areas.

During WW2 there were a number of men who were in many ways the unsung heroes of the conflict. These were the logistics guys who harnessed the industrial might of the United States by getting stuff from the factories to the front. It was the rise of these system analysts that contributed to the victory; so much so they were given the sobriquet “the Whiz Kids”. Henry Ford saw the potential in these guys and hired them for his auto business, and they became demigods. These men did not escape the notice of the government, and when the Vietnam conflict started and developed into a full-fledged war, the best of them all was given the post of Secretary of Defense. And so Henry McNamara the logistical wizard was put in charge of not a logistical process, in which he excelled, but a war. This war was supposed to produce a product- victory over an implacable foe.  McNamara failed so miserably at this job due to his focus on process and procedure. The product he produced was the exact opposite of the desires of his superiors: a defeat so spectacular and ignominious, that it impacted an entire culture for generations.

We are in the same fight but upon a far different field of battle: ignorance indeed is a far more implacable foe than any idealistic Third World soldier; and I believe that at least in this far flung corner of the conflict, we are hanging on by the skin of our teeth due to the same reasons that America lost in Vietnam. We cannot win with graduation rates (read body counts), graphs, consultants, and statistical modeling. We will not prevail by treating our enemy as an amorphic monolithic entity, the same everywhere, vulnerable in the exact same way in every battle. Most of all, if we continue to ignore the metaphysical aspect of our struggles we have no chance of making any headway at all.

I have read far more books on education than I can remember- and this should be a bellwether to the entire profession. There is a never ending stream of methodologies, best practices, taxonomies and statistical contortions that consume so many teachers for far too much time. There are more pitchmen for more different educational gadgetry than there is on late night T.V. for cutlery. Every one of them has the same mantra; if you just keep staring into the expanses of their new Gnosticism, you will perhaps be lucky enough that this secret gnosis held within inky depths of never ending analysis will be transferred through some sort of new age aeon- and you will be saved.

The latest read in my involuntary literary expedition is  Brick House  by a man named Danny Hill. Now don’t get me wrong- there are some good insights in this book- but that’s all they are- insights. Inspiring anecdotes where teachers have crossed the Jordan into the Promised Land after years of wandering in the desert of futility. I have had teachers tell me that this book is IT! Just like all the other books I have read– not to mention the high paid gurus I have had to sit through. When you ask why I am so hesitant to drink from the Flagon with the Dragon (It has the brew that is true!!) I will give you the straw that broke the back of my belief that short term teachers and long term talking heads can give me insight into the challenges we all face daily.

Last year we as a staff attended a two day conference on practices, with three highly touted, published consultants who were here to help us reclaim our educational battle flags from the enemy. One humble man was quite good and resonated with most of us at our table. This man was on the same wavelength as I am, and he was encouraging and supportive. However he paled in comparison to the other highlighted speaker, whose bombast and self-assurance, while met by the educational party cadres with acclaim and fervor, reminded me of a Leni Riefenstahl film of Nazi Party Rallies.

To paraphrase, but not to in any way misrepresent, this is what he said:

“Besides being a bestselling author and highly paid educational consultant, do you know that for the last three years previous to this gig that I was the head of ALL education in the Chicago School District? I was the third most powerful man in the entire city…. Why they could not even start a bus without my express consent! And do you know what? In half a year, the entire Chicago School District (tens of thousands of students by the way) increased their reading levels by THREE GRADES!! IN JUST HALF A YEAR! Now I tell you my listeners and followers, if you just follow my methods, you can have the same success. By the way don’t forget to sign up for my very reasonably priced information; the link is on the screen. You will be celebrated as I am. Did you know that the Chicago School Districts reading scores have practically leapt off the charts! And this is all because of me!”

People were mesmerized; he had a great charisma and was a brilliant speaker. Unfortunately for him, I knew the Force has a great effect on the weak minded, so I resisted with all my will power. Being old fashioned, I turned to a younger colleague and asked if I could use his smart phone; easy enough to verify his claims and to join in the choir of veneration. Taking his phone and searching the data to support his statements I was surprised to find that the data from the US dept. of Education, and the Chicago School system told quite a different story: Chicago School system reading test results had not shown any significant improvement over many years (over a decade if I recall). In fact the trend line was downward. Things were not getting better; things did not get better even for a while. Things were getting worse.

I sat there stunned at the audacity. Even more so, after a few moments what really angered me was our overall gullibility; there were three hundred and fifty teachers more or less in that room. Every single one of them had computers, smart phones, and all the latest techno-gadgetry hooking them up to the internet. Now I am quite sure I was the only poor slob in the room without a smart phone- and it was I, the old fashioned, out of touch relic from the past that had the silly idea to actually look up the data to see if he was selling snake oil or not. This was the most startling aspect in all of this; enlightening to say the least. All of my colleagues who were interested in my findings (and there weren’t many) looked at me as if I was Toto, pulling the curtain away from a side hall and exposing the real Wizard of Oz:

“What? You’re kidding!! Let me see that!”

“Hhumph!, is this the only site you have found this on? Or are there others?”

“There are? Where?………. Whhhoooaa!”

So many of us are searching for and buying:

“Maps to California!! Step right up to get the latest information to the Promised Land! Including all of the latest short cuts, and the equipment you need to get there (which we of course can provide you with for a very reasonable sum)!

That very few of us are asking the hard questions such as, “Find me someone who has been there using this map, and let me talk to them!”, among other pertinent questions.  If any one of these new practices or techniques were truly the across the board panacea we are all so desperately seeking, then all of the newer and more current discoveries would fall by the wayside. And they are not.

There is hope yet; for within the blather and static which clouds the mental faculties of everyone who promotes their own unique brand of snake oil, there is still within even the most brazen pitches the faint whiffs of what truly best practices are These whiffs are of the ingredients within which on their own will work for any teacher, on most any student with basic cognition and rudimentary character. These are contained within every one of these books commentaries and “teacher shows” that we all endure.

Camouflaged or mutilated, they yet still can be detected like a scarce rare ore within a stupendous heap of slag. They exist hiding in plain sight in the open domain- easily understood; and they have been the basis of education for the last thousand years or so. The fundamental framework and principles that have advanced learning for centuries until discredited as antiquated, and disposed of by the rise of the Post Modern age and characters like John Dewey. What are these hidden gems? They are not shiny, they are not fast, they are not endowed with technology; nor are they so obscure that it takes a consultant to purchase or decipher them.  They work and they do so all the time. They require effort however, hard work, and virtue on the part of those who wish to use them to unleash the inherent power they hold. They have done so from the dawn of the University movement ten centuries ago, through the Scholastic movement, into the Renaissance and beyond to the establishment of scientific method, the very foundations of modern civilization. It all comes down to that term doesn’t it? Civilization and our desire to have those in our charge take an active part in it, extending it ever further into the world. Thinking is necessary here; critical thinking and proper use of reason in order to maintain and defend this very system: a civilization that has been developing over the many millennia of human endeavor. This is our true goal as teachers, to teach what we know to be true, and to pass it on to those who do not, so they may use these lessons to their advantage and pass them on beyond.

So what indeed are these best practices, or perhaps from whence do they spring? All methods spring ultimately from principles so we must refer back to antiquity as well as the medieval period. These hinges, from which every successful door of intellect has ever hung, are the Four Cardinal Virtues. First formulated by Socrates, defined and commented upon by Plato and Aristotle, then finalized and perfected through examination by Thomas Aquinas, these foundational principles are the basic guide for any method, framework or educational taxonomy.  It matters not at what end of the cat you start skinning- for we all know there is more than one way. All we need is the basic principles and a sharp knife and we can get it done.

The Cardinal Virtues are:

  1. Prudence (wisdom)
  2. Fortitude
  3. Temperance
  4. Justice

By instituting these four Cardinal virtues, one can achieve best practice and flourishing educational environments in almost every situation. Of course those unfamiliar with Natural Philosophy (which is unfortunately at variance with modern educational thought- mores the pity) may find at first unfamiliarity bordering upon the bizarre; however all effective instruction flows from these principles. It takes a mind willing to learn from what has gone on before us, not one willing to embrace newness for its own sake. Upon these cornerstones have I laid the foundation of my trade. If one needs references, there is Plato’s Republic, Aristotle’s Ethics, and of course the Summa Theologica of Thomas Aquinas. I prefer St Thomas as he has completed the work of those before him.

It is beyond the scope of this paper to examine the use and ramifications of the Cardinal virtues in the educational context, but it does not take too much imagination for anyone who is searching for the answers to our plight to see after some reflection the inherent value of these, and the intuitive nature of it all.  I will be the first to admit to the fact that there are many times when I fail; but the failures can always be traced back to these virtues, and my lack of proper application. We humans, dealing with other humans under our care can only show the way, however imperfectly; it is ultimately up to the will of our students to either accept what we offer, or reject it. Without the use of these virtues, our highest intellect, will, and memory will fall far shorter than we ever imagine in our crusade for what we believe in.

I have perhaps gone on too long, but reflections always seem clearer the more we study them and adjust our focus. I have thought greatly over this, whether or not such a tack would be appropriate. In any case these are my truths. With regards to where I have decided to take my stand in relation to how and why I go about teaching, these are the far lonely hills upon which I have planted my standard. If this is to be my Alamo then so be it, for one is never so content to fall, when he is convinced of his cause.


John Spizziri

April 18, 2020





Religious Ed in the Pews/ An open letter to my Bishop


 Dear Bishop Warfel,

Last week I listened to an interview of you on the Catholic radio station in Billings. During this interview you were asked about the recent Pew Research results on how many Catholics believe in the Real Presence. The results of this poll showed that only around 39% of all Catholics believe in this Doctrine of the Church. Your commentary about this fact was curious.

 Your determination was that this is not so much a disbelief in the Doctrine, but an ignorance of It. This is a stunning admission of guilt- the Chief Shepherds of the Church, imbued with the Teaching Office for the Faithful – are responsible for the reality that Catholics do not acknowledge the most fundamental points of  Catholicism. Let us call a spade what it is; the Pew Poll reveals that over 60% of all Catholics are participating in Heresy! Regardless of the reason for this Heresy, the fact that we as the Mystical Body of Christ do not accept the Real Presence of Christ in the Eucharist is nothing short of stupendous. Either reason (ignorance or refusal) is cause for immediate concern. In recounting this to a Religious Ed class that less than 4 out of ten people sitting in the pews of a Catholic Church (including ours) did not believe that Our Lord is Present in the Eucharist, they were incredulous ( and these are 5th and 6th graders!). The honesty of the Chief Shepherd of our Diocese admitting that this ignorance is entirely due to the failure of the teaching office (Bishops in the Church) is admirable in a way if ignorance is the reason-  ignorance of the most fundamental and crucial aspect of the Catholic Faith- the Church instituted by Christ Himself. Let us remember the words of Our Lord in John Chapter 6, as well as St Paul’s ominous teaching upon receiving the Eucharist unworthily.

I find it alarming that according to the teaching of the Church, more than 60% of all Catholics engage in Mortal Sin on a weekly basis- (that is of course those that decide to show up) and that this Sin is due to the failure of the clergy for glossing over this most elemental aspect of  Catholicism.The most surprising comment however in this interview was what came after this admission of monumental abdication of clerical responsibility: How are we going to combat this?

Imagine my surprise when the answer to this disaster was not at all the most obvious answer- a concerted effort centered at the highest levels of the Diocese to recommit teaching from the pulpit every Sunday until it becomes ingrained in the laity that when Christ states, “This is My Body”  everyone knows for sure that they must believe in this statement before coming up to receive, or they must refrain from profanation of the Eucharist and remain seated. End of story. IT IS THAT SIMPLE. My shock was that the proposal to cure to this ignorance (or outright heresy) on the part of the laity  from the Office of Bishop of Christ is the following:


Putting some notices in the Diocesan Magazine for a few months, and maybe have parish bulletins insert a paragraph or two in a few issues.

I am sure you have thought about this catastrophe before you were interviewed- because you seemed to be very ready with your response; and satisfied with what appeared to you as a satisfactory counterattack against the forces of secularism and those demonic forces that are partying even now -due to their advances in the spiritual battle; footnotes in publications that hardly anyone reads.

May I suggest something? Perhaps when you as Bishop makes  Parish visits to your flock around the Diocese, as you did for us  two weeks ago (Thank You for this!) your Homily would be an outstanding opportunity to preach Christ; Him Crucified and Resurrected – and how the Eucharist is a Mystical re-presentation of Our Lords Supreme Act. Something Awesome; Something Powerful, and Something Majestic. This I believe is what is called for at this time, for there are Souls at stake; and the fearsome responsibility you hold makes you much more accountable for these Souls than any other human being on the face of the Earth. Personal anecdotes about growing up in the Midwest are fine- when the circumstances require such stories- but now is not the time for such; now is the time to lead your flock and search for those who are lost, before they become devoured by predators.

As Our Lord said, The fields are white with harvest- those of us who are in agriculture know well the full meaning of this statement: every day you delay harvesting your crop you lose part of the harvest as it gets destroyed through the circumstances of time. It is a race between the harvesters and the forces that destroy it. It is high time we all take heed of this and do our part, for the yields of The Catholic Church are ever dwindling through our own lack of understanding how important each of our jobs are.

May Our Lord Bless You and sustain you during these times!

JOhn Spizziri

The Failure of Reason … and the triumph of Faith

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The death of Reason has arrived, and in its place there is nothing left but Faith. The educated, slow precise process of reason has been distorted into what is pictured above: we no longer have the ability to discern the difference between reasoning rightly, and weaponized reason which was basically introduced when the first graduating class of lawyers took their place in society.

Reason has been replaced by  argument, Argument uses propaganda with a smattering of  convenient fact. Argument is judged by people as to winners and losers, and is not adjudicated by The Objective Truth, which we know as He Who Is.

No indeed, this is not an example of well thought out reasoning backed up with truths. This is a RANT- an argument: for this is how we all ( the fallen) now communicate with each other. For many, especially those of us who rely on our own intellect, vocabulary and memory, this turn of events is a sad day indeed; but for the Church Triumphant, it is a day of Glory.

Faith is all we have. Every breath we take, every cell in our bodies function thanks to the sustaining Will of Our Lord and God. We continue to build upon our new, final Tower of Babel (the current hijacked civilization) ascending to the heavens for the purpose of displacing He Who lives there (what a joke). We rest our aspirations upon the crumbling mud bricks of a foundation which was never designed to take the strain thrust upon it.

You might say it is kind of fascinating to watch this unfolding drama; how the water in our toilet bowl reality keeps spinning faster and faster with each successive revolution: but this swirling, roiling miasma acts the way it does only due to the fact that someone has opened the trap at the bottom, where we are all now doomed to go. All alone on our way to this civilizations judgement day. And along we “slouch toward Gomorrah”, and with it will go every good thing we have devised and discovered for it all has been stained with corruption.

Once there was a kingdom, surrounded by a vast ravenous host; inside still operating under the assumption that all was as it had always been. Terrible banners encamped on all sides, this place where the God Most High  had sworn to make His home with men. With hope only in accord with The One who dwelt there, where did the people turn to? Not God, but Egypt, and the end of all that they knew followed swiftly after.

All of us our guilty; we have all sowed weeds in our own gardens, so now the crop shall soon fail. There is nothing left for us but that which we ourselves must grasp; that what will be reduced to the flotsam and jetsam which once was a mighty ship, now only a reeking hulk- Our Faith. Hold fast– for help will come; the only other option is to abandon what is left of the ship, and meet the fate of all those who have descended to the bottom of the endless sea.

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I well understand that there is a huge amount of debate about the “abomination of desolation” quote (above in Hebrew). Opinions are as varied as snowflakes; yet even snowflakes have familiar constructive elements. So does this term; elements that everyone basically agrees on, but I think in light if recent events, elements that are being missed, and missed badly.

The “abomination of desolation” erected in the “Temple” is to be a sign of the beginnings of a cataclysm that heralds the end of an age in the world. One example of this was the profanation of the second Jewish Temple by the Romans before  the end of Historic Judaism, ushering in Rabbinical Judaism and The new covenant of Jesus Christ and His Church. (For all you hairsplitters, go ahead and start your dirges, I am going to get worse!)

What is a Temple? A Temple is where God Himself lives. That is what the Jewish Temple was designed for, a place for the Lord to live with His people. There is only one example of this left in the world; Catholic Churches where Jesus Christ in his full Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity reside entire throughout the world. What is the “abomination of desolation”? It is an idol of a demon, for there is no other God in the Universe. Therefore any representation of a supernatural being besides the Lord or his servants the Angels is a Demon.

Where pray tell has this ever occurred with the blessings of  Priests, Bishops, Cardinals and The Successor of Peter in the One, Holy, Catholic and Apostolic Church, in its history?  Christs Bride; besmirched and sullied by Christs ministers–all white on the outside but filled with dead mens’ bones. Beamed into every dwelling on the planet, where the world can see: Hypocrisy,  Heresy, Profanation and Apostasy. And all this with nary a murmur from the human race. I feel like I am actually living inside the novel The Lord of the World.

May God forgive us. May God forgive us? Or rather may God execute judgement upon us in His infinite Mercy. No there will not be Hell to pay for this:

There will be Heaven to pay for this.


The Limits of Reason


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I am not a theologian. I am most certainly not  Thomist. I am a layman. I am not elegant, not a rhetorician, nor am I able to use words to obfuscate or confuse. I am a poor slob in the pews who has no hierarchical or liturgical rights. I am however in possession of a mind and rudimentary discernment. I know the difference between right and wrong, truth and error, regardless how it is cloaked. I also know that the richer the raiment, the more likely the error, for sheep never dress up as wolves, but wolves never hesitate to wear fancy dress and use fancy words. I as a Catholic, also recognize the role of human reason to discern Truth.. I also as a Catholic recognize that human reason has a strictly defined limit, and that limit is Divine Revelation. Upon the bridge between Human Reason and Divine Revelation is a great and terrible Angelic messenger, standing at arms and stating four chilling words to a true Catholic,


 It is prudent to heed these words, for one of the greatest weapons of the enemy is to plug our ears so we continue on our way towards error and damnation, and worse to lead others down this path as well. Listen closely Shepard’s of Christs flock. Sophistry and erudition, and the love of obscure statements that lead fools to adulation are the very foundation of Lucifer’s triumph in Eden.

Human reason and the love of self has led some of us to propose that there is no legitimacy for permanent punishment on earth. This reasoning leads to the next obvious conclusion sought by HE WHO IS NOT; namely there is no permanent punishment beyond earth; that there is no Eternal Damnation. This will come out of the mouth of those who refuse to believe in Jesus Christ and His Father, who have decreed otherwise. Any other Gospel which is preached other than Divine revelation, is from the mouth of Satan; and we should pray for those who speak these things, and flee from them as St. John fled from the heretic in the baths in Ephesus.



My Letter to Bishop Barron

August 25, 2019

Dear Bishop Barron,

Let me preface this letter with two points. First and foremost, I am a layman; secondly I do not expect this letter to ever reach you, nor do I expect a reply. I write this letter under inspiration- one can only assume it is an inspiration due to anger; however there is a very slight chance that perhaps it  may be the Holy spirit.

I have read your Letter to the Suffering Church ; it was handed out after Mass today. Our Priest, a reverent and saintly man asked us to take one and read it; however when I asked him if he had read it he said he said no. Therefore it must have been a directive from the Diocese. On this I have a few comments. First that you have the courage to address this beyond your own Diocese, which I commend. Second, that our own diocese has NOT had the courage to address this; either publicly through channels or privately through response to letters (14 at least from my own hand).

-Silence-…. Not the silence of humility Our Lord, but the haughty condescending silence one gives an impertinent servant that asks for an explanation of why he is being used so poorly. Nevertheless you have stepped in and done your best, for a shepherd who has other more important things to do than to tend his sick flock. As an aside, perhaps all Spiritual shepherds must be reminded of what all of us real life stockmen learned very quickly when pasturing sheep- the four S’s—Sick Sheep Seldom Survive.

Now on to your letter. Your scriptural and historical allusions were wonderful and timely. Perhaps in a later time they would be considered inspiring and even regarded as prophetic; the one person and quote you did not mention was Athanasius , “the floor of Hell is paved with the skulls of Bishops” ( I like that one). I found your description of He who is Not apt but untimely; after all, Pope Francis’ former boss has just informed us that Lucifer does not truly exist (WHEW!!).

I pity all of the clergy; those who are faithful and orthodox due to the stripes they receive unjustly today and all the rest for ending up as floor tiles in Satan’s new additions to Hell, as he most certainly need to build. Yes, there has always been evil clergy, as Hollywood so likes to remind us- yet the last thing we need is a Bishop to tell us what we all know so well. We live in the world, you do not. We are deemed the fools of a depraved institution who cannot even see that we are guilty as co conspirators after the fact: this is how we are seen and treated in the world. Just try to be a member of the great unwashed, attempting to evangelize, being not just a member of the Church our Lord founded and swore to uphold, but to be told that, “after all Hitler was a Catholic!!”. Try that on for size Bishop.

Souls are being lost Bishop- Souls both Catholic and non Catholic; and this due to the hierarchy of our Churches damnable (and I mean damnable right through to the bone) behavior. For this I pity all clergy- you will all have to answer for the sins of your “brothers” as Eli answered for the sins of his sons. To top it all off, guess who gets to foot the bill for the activities of apostate and heretical “Princes of the Church”- the poor slobs in the pews who are being milked to death like a poor cow being sucked dry 24 hours a day every day. “It’s a great life if you don’t weaken”, the Brits used to say during the Blitz in WW2. Well Bishop, we are weakening: Sick Sheep Seldom Survive.

I read and watch the coverage’s of the USCCB conferences and I see hundreds of Neroes fiddling while Rome burns (we don’t need to go down this rabbit hole boys, let’s talk about carbon emissions!). Well now do we rue the fact that seminaries eliminate strong men early on and promote weak yes men to ordination; yours is an engine of company design and desire: one that has no compression or spark, hence no combustion or power.

I tell people that if they want to know what kind of men were the Apostles to watch the show Deadliest Catch- those are the type of men that Christ chose to convert the world! Twelve hard, demanding tough, stubborn resilient men who built His Church, giving it over to effeminate elitists that are going to lose it all if something does not change. The 2002 Conference despite your spin was a joke, carefully crafted as such, as events bear out. The programs now in place such as “Safe and Secure” in our Diocese are pure CYA garbage that do nothing but make sure that the church is not held financially accountable when these things happen again; and happen they will. The foxes run the hen house most assuredly and even use the “new norms” a  tool to persecute and remove those who sound alarms; may I mention Cardinal Pell?

When I took your book, it was with trepidation and doubt; in truth I suspect any cleric who has celebrity status in the world for obvious reasons. Nonetheless with a hope against hope I searched for boldness and courage. It is appreciated that you offer us consolation hand and voice during our Churches trial- yet perhaps one should really try to slay the wolf that is tearing our limbs off, the bar the doors and windows before mopping our brows. It is assumed by some that our Bishops seem so oblivious to what is going on because they are afraid of Schism. Just between you, me and a fence post, it is pretty obvious that very soon there will not be anything left to Schis.

We are under a final (I believe ) Babylonian Captivity: not French Nobles who have kidnapped the Church, but effeminate new age materialists (wait a second… same girl, different dress?) while we all wait for somebody In the Hierarchy to heed the call of Saint Catherine once again, “return to Rome and shepherd your flock before it is too late!!”.

Remember, Sick Sheep Seldom Survive.

Yours with the highest esteem for a successor to the Apostles,

John Spizziri

Box 128

Ryegate Montana  59074


I tried to find an address for Bishop Barron, but one cannot contact him as there is no address either at the Archdiocese of Los Angeles or as Word on Fire ministries. Hence this entry. to my blog.


I am a Catholic. Do what you will.

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I am a Catholic. I am a member of the Universal Church founded by Our Lord Jesus Christ, and organized by His successor and representative on Earth; Simon Peter and the Apostles. I adhere to the beliefs put forward in the Apostles Creed, Nicene Creed and Athanasian Creed. I believe in the Historical Church that is a living and vital outgrowth of these  early times. I believe in the Mass and I “do this in memory of Me” as I have been directed by Jesus Christ Himself; for I believe in Scripture, which says one must eat His Body and Drink His Blood in order to have everlasting life. I believe in Salvation through Christ and Christ alone and that He was and still is both man and God. I believe in the Holy Scriptures, which state that “the pillar and foundation of truth is the Church.

I do not believe this because any of it is easy; for it is not. I do not believe this because it will make me richer, more popular, or make my life easy; for it does not do any of these things. It makes my life harder, poorer, lonelier and more difficult.

I believe in the Catholic Church and its claims via Jesus Christ- because it is all True.

I believe in the office of Bishop and its Sanctity; yet I do not believe the Bishops. I believe in the Petrine Office and its Sanctity, but I do not believe the Pope. I believe in the teaching authority of Holy Mother Church, but I do not believe the integrity nor the motives of those who teach. I believe in the  office of the Priesthood, yet I do not believe the Priests.

Pope Paul VI once said that the smoke of Satan has entered the Church through some fissure or crack. I believe this. I believe the Prophesies that the Church will be crucified; for it is the Mystical Body of Christ, and just like our Master, the Crucified Body will die and be raised again.

I have been lied to. I have been stolen from. I have been betrayed. All of this has been done by those who are in charge of caring for my Holy Mother, as they pound nails into Her hands and feet. Soon She will be hoisted up upon Her Cross, and all the world will jeer at Her, while only a pitiful few will refrain from running away. I will not run. I will not hide. I will not deny Her. I will kneel at the foot of Her Cross and watch Her be tortured and watch Her die- Her who is all we have of Christ on earth… for She will be raised again.

I am a Catholic. Do what you will.

Letter to my Bishop -11

John Spizziri
Mon 12/3/2018, 1:43 PM
Diocese of Great Falls-Billings
Dear Bishop Warfel,
 Hopefully you are fully aware of the catastrophic decline in Church offerings at St Marys. While not on the Parish council, by keeping abreast of finances published in the bulletin and the announcements after Mass, at the current rate St Marys is less than two years away from financial insolvency. This of course is not to mention the “debt” the parish has “incurred” from not meeting its Diocesan assessments, amounting to over $66,000 as of this time if John Patersons figures are correct.
    I am most sure that the clerical scandals of this diocese and the way they were handled especially recently have resulted in this current situation; not to mention the devastation created throughout the Universal Church in the United States by men who hold Episcopal and Priestly office that have betrayed their vows and their Faith.
  Tidal waves start out so small out in the oceanic hinterlands; they are just an almost imperceptible swell in the surrounding deep. However as they approach the shoreline they show their true nature; a terrifying and unstoppable force unleashed far far away that has stupendous consequences as a result of them meeting a different medium; for water is incompressible and the force of it destroys all before it. Such is true with betrayal and denial.
 There will soon be no St Marys in Columbus, and I would assume any place else as well if these trends continue. The Faithful (such as we are) will be left with no Mass, no Sacraments and no liturgical consolations in our lives. Perhaps this is just the fate of all churches- Except Christ promised us all otherwise. the terrifying path that the Catholic Church hierarchy has proposed for the future is empty platitudes and rearguard actions of a defeated force. What a shame.
 It is a pity that there are no individuals around that will not shrink from the laborious actions and humiliating labors that are needed to turn this catastrophe around. Such was Athanasius, and those of his ilk- I mean St Athanasius, not Bishop Athanasius who is now prevented by His Holiness from moving outside his diocese for preaching Orthodoxy.
 With all due respect to your office Bishop, (and this I mean in the most heartfelt sense) you must hear this: While you and your peers have proprietal and Sacramental Authority in the Church, You all have squandered your Moral Authority, and are well on Your way to losing Your Theological Authority with the Laity. This problem is painfully obvious out in the pews (not to mention among non Catholics), and it is a dilemma that at this time seems to be without a solution.
 I will continue praying for you and for the Pope and all of the Bishops and Clergy of our One, Holy and Apostolic Church.
 Regards, JOhn Spizziri